Chronic Pain Today

Sometimes pain isn’t chronic at all, sometimes pain comes on all at once and throws you into a tailspin that is way too quick for someone to realise what is happening.

Tonight I’ve just came home from the hospital. My best friend lost his brother, and there wasn’t a thing I could do to help ease that pain. It was the most helpless and worthless as I’ve felt since the last time I was in a hospital waiting room hearing the same words “He had a widowmaker”. The exact cause of death of my best friends brother was the same cause that I witnessed my dad have that he barely lived through. I was immediately seeing all that over again, and I knew I was just as helpless in being there for the best friend as I was in the hospital that day.

How do you mend a broken heart? How can you remove the guilt that you are seeing your best friend have, even though it is clearly not his fault? How can you help in a time like that? I still don’t know, and I cry thinking of everything he’s going through and I can’t do a thing about it but question why.